You won’t leave me, will you?

I would really die. I’m terrified. If anything happens to you I will make sure my suffering never ends. I’ll take all of the evil with me. I’ll never live a moment without pain. Only immeasurable agony would do. That’s what I’d deserve. I’m already having a hard time trying to make sure I make […]

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Sequence

Why is it so taxing to repeat it backwards? What is the psychology behind it? How does one do it just as easily as doing it forwards? I think I have around 110 posts now. I didn’t count. I’m trying to grasp what it would be like to not have to expend any effort into […]

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Perfect memory

Not eidetic or photographic but absolutely perfect. Getting there is a lot of work without repetition. I’m in no hurry. There’s no space to rush things when you’re already completely occupied. I intend to be absolutely unoccupied. Perfect memory means never having to exercise it. Thus, there’s no explicit memory whatsoever. Memory is utility. It’s […]

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Intellect

It’s precise like a scalpel. It’s pristine. What I have yet to achieve is this clean and clear quality of it with numbers. Whatever calculations I do will have to be timeless. I feel very much burdened. It’s tricky. There is no deliberate psychological time but that doesn’t make everything I do automatically timeless. There […]

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Communication (part 3)

If a fragment can appear anywhere in a causal chain then does that mean that communication between closed systems is possible? But, that doesn’t make sense for one obvious reason. Causal “chain” implies there’s a link between events that are causally connected. But, then why is there a chain? Sequence is sensible. We make sense […]

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Causation

What do you think a causal chain implies? The fact that if one were to see the whole of it, they’d see what fragment will appear at what point in time. My concept of time is accurate. Time and movement are one and the same. By movement I mean jumping from one fragment to another. […]

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No help required.

I absolutely need no help from anyone to learn anything ever again. I haven’t been making these weird claims because I am delusional. I don’t understand what the crap is going on in my psychology but I feel no effort expended on my part to learn anything given that I follow the causal chain of […]

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What is Consciousness?

Consciousness “moves” through space and time. What we perceive is a fixed point. A point is dimensionless. All that’s perceptible is a fixed point. All of Thought is a fixed point. What is a Conscious being? Being? Consciousness is a function. Utilitarian. Movement is Consciousness. What moves? A being? Why is there a fixed point? […]

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