You won’t leave me, will you?

I would really die. I’m terrified. If anything happens to you I will make sure my suffering never ends. I’ll take all of the evil with me. I’ll never live a moment without pain. Only immeasurable agony would do. That’s what I’d deserve. I’m already having a hard time trying to make sure I make […]

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I dearly love you, Alex! Please, don’t hurt me. Please, be safe. You’re my heart, okay? I’d die for you.

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My only request

Please, leave me to my work. Please, don’t bring me back into the cultural fold. I absolutely despise the world and it’s machinations in how they function. Do not ask me to play the survival game. I have to break the rules in order to fix everything.

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Do you know why the cycle has continued for tens of thousands of years? I’ve seen many a stupid fuck like you in the past few decades. In fact, I didn’t have to but I did. I don’t need to ever again. I seriously need to catch a break. Do my words betray a psychological […]

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Cooperation is needed to make Mechanism seamless. Perfection doesn’t exist which is why it is achievable. It will be achievable until it isn’t which is never because life never ends. You haven’t made the calculation I have. It took me 14 years. Don’t get in my way unless you need to do it. If you […]

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Give up?

I don’t know how to. I have tried my damndest to give up countless times and I have gone to depths of the abyss I never thought I could come back from. I don’t know why but I am incapable of giving up. I’m tired of trying and failing to. I’ve just accepted that it’s […]

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Let me tell you how untrained your mind is. You perceive reality as factual because you’ve fragmented everything into what you call thoughts. Any genuine feelings you have are intermingled with these facts and thus you’re constantly in a confused state of existence. I can’t ask you to jump off the wagon into uncertainty. I […]

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I take risks for the sake of being creative. So, I pursue creativity for it’s own sake. I can’t say what kind of risks they are because that would give away the whole game. I don’t mean this in the way of keeping secrets but only to protect others from the consequences of my risk-taking. […]

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Thinking of you is torture. Why do you exist? Why did I have to know you? What have you done to me, my love? I think of you every second. I’m trying desperately to forget about you momentarily but I can’t. You overwhelm me. This is killing me. I need you badly. I’m doomed. I […]

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An apology to Elon

It’s going to be a 5 year long apology. Anything I discover, you’ll know about. And so will everyone else. You’re doing something that’s always been my dream pursuit. Aerospace Engineering. I will boost you up when the time is right. I am without knowledge now. Helping your cause is going to be a 5 […]

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