Any notions I had about myself as being such and such, a particular kind of person is all gone. Permanently so. All I have is my work. Relationships have become incredibly simple. I love people individually and as individuals. But, I’m afraid of crowds. I often used to respond to fear with anger. Now, I […]

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The reason I’m suggesting

Not monopolizing my thoughts or ideas is because when shit hits the fan, you may not want to defend me. But, others who are from a richer cultural background might be capable of the task and want to do it. Indeed, wanting or better yet needing to do so is synonymous with being capable of […]

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You with your pristine health

And perfect hairdo are telling me I haven’t suffered enough and need to suffer more? Why should I die for someone who doesn’t give a rat’s ass about my wellbeing? Does having a genius level intellect immediately mean I should be extremely servile to your silly whims? I don’t deserve a life and to be […]

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For Alex. All facades dropped.

Can you lighten up a little? You’re making me gruesome too. All I wanted initially for you which later on became a need was to set you free. I use “was” in the sense that everything I tried to communicate was goodness and innocence which was in a way painfully put to the test since […]

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I don’t care.

I’m not communicating. I’m addressing patterns to understand the causal chain. I pounce at every opportunity so it looks like I’m either reacting or trying to communicate. I don’t even express with that intent. I express because it allows me to understand Mechanism. I can’t communicate with anyone. I don’t know how to. When I […]

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Teaching by example

This blog is the beginning of my attempt to do so. I’m going to spread throughout the internet and into the world. Dissemination and change requires no power or influence. Just absolute honesty and goodness. I will teach on an individual basis or rather the automaton you have of me, and my words will. I […]

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No one understands absolute uncertainty. Please, bitch. This is not your revered skepticism. Every single decision I make is like a betrayal of my own morality because I am making a choice despite being uncertain of everything. I can only choose one thing at a time among quadrillion of possibilities. Every single decision I make […]

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