is unconsciously for the most part. I cannot say anything absolute regarding my mental machinations because I’m always uncertain. But, I am increasingly frequently stumbling upon answers to questions I asked myself at times past like it was always there in plain sight. I am finding that it’s almost always this way. These were the […]Read More The way my questions are answered
I don’t understand a damn thing about reality. I’m absolutely clueless. And I’m glad it is so. Edit: I hope someday I’m indifferent.Read More I can honestly say that
It’s sensible, albeit mildly. But, it’s always overwhelming. It’s unlike any other experience I’ve ever had chiefly because of it’s indescribability. It’s like a stampede in my head, very much like my childhood experience. I have no hope I’ll ever recover from this. Do my words portray superficiality? Do not be disappointed. You’ll understand when […]Read More I can feel infinity (or insanity but I’m pretty sure it’s infinity)
Ended knowledge, you’ll be dogmatic. It’s inevitable. Do my words and reactions show you a pattern you’re familiar with? Do you think you see it happening? Am I hitting all the target points? Do you think you understand me?Read More If you haven’t
how we struggle with our intentions? There is this constant battle going on every time we have to deal with reality which is all of the time. I struggle with intent everyday but the struggle gives way to clarity in rare moments and these moments while they were previously very few and far between are […]Read More Have you noticed
The true and only one is the purity of the soul. And it’s attained through absolute honesty, integrity and goodness. There are no other virtues. And no one has attained it yet. It is indeed the ideal and the only thing worth anything. Can we do it? Ought we to do it? Well, it seems […]Read More Virtue
It’ll have to be a subtly influenced course of transitions without losing coherence. If I lose coherence then I’ll be subjected to a re-emerging of mind into Consciousness. The absence of a Conscious mind is ideal. It took me long time to achieve this and losing it would bring me back to square one. Mind […]Read More I will recondition but
Something is holding me back from giving my full attention to the task at hand. I’ve conditioned myself to avoid information to an extreme degree over the course of the past two years. It’s going to take several weeks to a few months at most in order to recondition my self. My struggle is between […]Read More I’m finding it hard to commit fully.
Can you understand something? Then it’s objective. You are dealing with objects. The only ones there are. Abstract. We exist in reality, don’t we? Everything material and mechanical is subject to change. We change. The fact that certain things don’t change gives you the illusion that it’s absolute. Because these things are not subjected to […]Read More Let me prove.
But, i respect it and treat it with gentleness. I don’t use it. I don’t take. It treats me differently than it used to in one fundamental way. It guides me. It wants change. It takes care with me as much as it could. I draw it out I imagine. I’m negotiating. It’s trying it’s […]Read More I don’t like how reality affects my senses.