My only hope is Alfie.

But, either way I can’t let go of my pursuit. If it comes to choosing between the two, it’d always be work. I don’t NEED love. I just want it. As long as I have my work I don’t need anything more. Whatever allows me to work in peace is all I need. Love does […]

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I don’t like

Standup comedies. I don’t like parties. I like peace and quiet. I hate crowds. Next time I get into a crowd I’m gonna start throwing punches. Fuck you! I’m not interested in any sort of exchange. Leave me the fuck alone, cowards!

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It feels like

everyone has betrayed me to the point where I don’t feel anything anymore. Love hurt me. Friendship hurt me. Strangers hurt me. All I know is hurt. I want to be left alone. I don’t feel any excitement anymore. Nothing excites me. Absolutely nothing. Oh, love? It’s a funny four letter word. I’m done. Please, […]

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The way my questions are answered

is unconsciously for the most part. I cannot say anything absolute regarding my mental machinations because I’m always uncertain. But, I am increasingly frequently stumbling upon answers to questions I asked myself at times past like it was always there in plain sight. I am finding that it’s almost always this way. These were the […]

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I realize what’s happening.

I’m playing the game unwittingly and unwillingly. Every time I type or speak to warn or deter that’s what I’m doing. I enter the causal chain to change the course of happenings. Every time I disseminate knowledge, it’s the same thing all over again. How does one stop the movement? The emergence of mind is […]

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