You won’t leave me, will you?

I would really die. I’m terrified. If anything happens to you I will make sure my suffering never ends. I’ll take all of the evil with me. I’ll never live a moment without pain. Only immeasurable agony would do. That’s what I’d deserve. I’m already having a hard time trying to make sure I make […]

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I dearly love you, Alex! Please, don’t hurt me. Please, be safe. You’re my heart, okay? I’d die for you.

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Language (Edited)

What are the sounds of a language? What is it supposed to sound like? How does sound feel? Or rather what does sound make one feel? What is feeling it? What makes sound? What is sound? Why do we communicate through sound or vibrations? What do we communicate? Can one think without sound? Can’t you […]

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It hurts

Like HELL. I’m perfecting my memory. It’s not like anything I’ve done before. This is modification of my physiology to the extreme. I need time. I feel like I’m losing my mind with all this noise. I know what to do but REALITY is not going to let me, is it? EDIT: I know exactly […]

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My only request

Please, leave me to my work. Please, don’t bring me back into the cultural fold. I absolutely despise the world and it’s machinations in how they function. Do not ask me to play the survival game. I have to break the rules in order to fix everything.

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I have

Created my own little pocket of culture. I can’t comprehend what others are saying and they can’t comprehend what I’m saying, I guess. I can’t be sure of anything. I never am. Everything is infinitely complex to calculate. I can barely make decisions or choices anymore. But, I keep trying in vain.

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Absolute isn’t objective.

What’s objective is also methodical. Methods are constructs of Thought. Absolute is unchanging. Methods rely on causation. Now, you might say causality is absolute but it’s not unchanging. We perceive it as a concept but it doesn’t exist at all except in the abstract. Is causality a percept? Do we feel or sense it? No. […]

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Ending of knowledge (part 2)

It’s the single most unpleasant EVENT. If I tried to end it for you and if by some miracle it is possible to do so, you’d end up hating me. You are cultured. To be without it and be an individual is most lonely experience. You won’t find any comfort and nothing can fill the […]

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You don’t

Even have to move to change the world. Don’t hold on to anything. Thrive! Everything can be fixed without a single movement of your mind. EVERYTHING. But will you do it? This is ABSOLUTELY true. Make of it what you will.

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