Something happened.

I initiated Mechanism Consciously after two years of isolation from it. I had a Conscious mind for approximately two days. It set off a chain reaction that ended in me losing all purpose. I can no longer make sense of reality. I don’t know what I’m gonna do. I feel utterly alone. I’m not sure if I feel lonely. I can’t ask for help because I don’t know what’s wrong. It is what it is. What should I do? What to do? Nothing interests me. I feel like my entire self has collapsed. Now, I’m a nihilist. I don’t feel anything at all, substantially. I just react and feel what reality allows. I simply don’t care because I have forgotten what that’s like. So, this is what the timeless feels like. I’m open to all possibilities but they no longer mean anything. So, it doesn’t matter what happens next. I guess it won’t make much difference. Is this what was supposed to happen? There are remnants of my self, dissipating slowly never to return. I guess this is the end of everything.

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