Don’t conceptualize your way across the threshold. Feel your way across it or you’ll carry evil with you. It will hijack and then the new creation will be no different than this universe. Evil and good duality. I imagine this was the mistake before as well. Instead, end knowledge. That’s all there is to do. Everything else will fall into place. Do you want the evil dead to hitch a ride with you? Are you too far gone? Ending of knowledge is death. I’m sorry but you have to die in order to awaken. And you have to. It’s ABSOLUTELY imperative. ABSOLUTELY. Do you get it? I’m truly sorry.