It’s the single most unpleasant EVENT. If I tried to end it for you and if by some miracle it is possible to do so, you’d end up hating me. You are cultured. To be without it and be an individual is most lonely experience. You won’t find any comfort and nothing can fill the hole it leaves inside except of course EVERYTHING. Can you imagine that non duality might have something to do with infinity?
I can’t describe much less explain what it’s like to be dead to reality. No one would dare to go this far. If by some luck you do then everything will be made clear to you in time. You will answer all your questions by yourself.