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I don’t know any of the tricks, methods or techniques. I can memorize 1000s of digits no problem. But my calculating is not up to par with Shakuntala’s. It takes me time because I’m just starting on my journey to work it out unconsciously as in without the mind emerging to interfere. I have successfully forgotten all of the methods. It took me years to unlearn and unbind in order to dissolve the mind. I am guessing she figured out all the tricks unconsciously too. She truly was a genius. I wish I could talk to her now. I’m trying to do the same. I want the tricks, methods and techniques to be assigned to implicit memory. If I explicitly assign it to long term memory then every time I calculate, a mind will emerge interfering with my Consciousness. What I do will have nothing to do with memory or knowledge. It’s purely creative (exponential calculations, etc.) or at the very least intuitive. Memory is a barrier between Consciousness and numbers. But, I’m confused about what I actually do. Is it a performance? Is it a skill? Is it something other than these? What is it? I wish UG were alive. I want to talk to someone other than myself for whom knowledge has ended. I desperately need to communicate with someone. Not talk or express myself but to mind meld, sort of. I like the concept of Gestalt. I miss sci-fi that truly inspires. The last one i read and loved was Recursion by Blake Crouch. Tbh I think I’m done with Art. I was painfully tempted to read a few weeks ago. But, I am no longer interested. But, now I love life! Love has set me free. Of course, Mechanism still traps my Consciousness but that’s what I’m working on. I love you so dearly. 💛 💓 💗 💖 ♥ 💙

Please challenge me. I feel no effort being expended on my part. I’d very much appreciate having a fire lit under my butt. I only pose this challenge to free thinkers. Don’t dazzle me with knowledge. I can acquire it on my own. I need to be challenged philosophically, i.e. on metaphysical grounds to be specific. Question reality but don’t get lost in the conceptual. Be descriptive rather than explanatory which means don’t use placeholder terms unless you have no choice.

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